I have to dig…

Into the corners

Of my mind

Just to find traces

Of you

Left behind

And even then;

You’re ephemeral

So fleeting;

Scattered, and

Temporal

Where do you

Reside?

Are you there

Still inside?

Or have you

Faded

For eternity?

Will I be

Jaded

Eternally?
Internally,

Perhaps

Certainly..

I have

Lost you

Forever.

Like two

Inseparable friends

Who've lost

Touch

With one another..

Was it

That you felt

Smothered?

Or was it me?

So completely

Inundated

Infatuated

Elevated

And

Saturated

With you..

I lost track

Of which

One of us

Made it so

Difficult

To breathe.

Maybe we

Took turns.

I have

Heard it told

That nothing is

Permanent;

And at some point

Everything on earth

Adjourns..

And I’ve also heard that

When something

Yearns

With an

Ebullition

That burns;

It always

Returns..

Lack of

Inhibition

Discerns

Unwisely..

So

Why didn’t you

Remain

Beside me?

Who pushed who

Away?

Did I not

Beg of you

To stay?

Heaven forbid

It was me

Who did

The unthinkable

And went

Astray..

And now

Today

I keep hitting

Rewind

For an

Instant replay

Of what

Happened

To us..

I’m

Saddened

For us.

We grew apart..

Or

At least

That’s what I

Keep telling myself.

That it’s only

Smart

To leave you

In the past.

You were

Never

Meant to last.

Or were you?

I feel so

Cynical

Regarding those

Who prefer you

They’re chasing

A dream

Not likely to

Materialize.

More like a

Scheme

That they fail to

Realize

Will only disappoint

Them

In time.
Speaking of time..

Just how much of that

Is actually left?

My greys

Are more than

Showing..

How much

Longer

Do I have

Not knowing

If you’re

Ever

Coming back?

Or

Will it truly

Be necessary

For me to come

Running back

To you?

Will you brag

When we meet?

If so..

I’ll drag

My

Feet.